Be Still

By Victoria Vissat

Running. Running in circles I go again. Maybe if I scroll through social media long enough I won’t have to feel. Maybe it will numb the pain, the sadness, the anger, the shame and guilt. Maybe I’ll wake up one day without the ache.

Lies. It will never work. Countless efforts to fill the hole come up short. Happiness is an inside job. He loves me too much, too much to leave me there. I pray, Lord, show me where I am hiding, reveal to me the truth behind the walls.

His love fills me up and I know for a moment I am okay. God designed me for Himself; and only His touch will satisfy. Bruised and broken I fall before His feet. Come Lord, Jesus, rescue me now. 

As soon as we are alone inner chaos opens up in us. This chaos can be so disturbing and so confusing that we can hardly wait to get busy again. Entering a private room and shutting the door, therefore, does not mean that we immediately shut out all our inner doubts, anxieties, fears, bad memories, unresolved conflicts, angry feelings and impulsive desires. On the contrary, when we have removed our outer distraction, we often find that our inner distraction manifest themselves to us in full force. We often use the outer distractions to shield ourselves from the interior noises. This makes the discipline of solitude all the more important. – Henri Nouwen

P.S. You are enough.