Learning to Let Go: What an Unexpected Pregnancy Taught Me
By Maura Preszler
It’s been a long time since I’ve posted on my blog and I have missed it. So much has happened since I last posted and I’m excited to be blogging again. Happy to share I had our 3rd baby boy the end of April 2020 – Luke William joined our family and we couldn’t love him more. How have y’all been doing? Let me know!
I’m sharing this personal story about my second pregnancy because I know someone out there needs to be reminded that everything is going to be okay and that God is in control.
Almost 4 years ago I sat in the doctors office in California holding my oldest son Pio who was 5 months old. The doctor looked me in the eyes and told me I was pregnant. I fought so hard to hold back the tears that formed in my eyes. She gently touched my hand, “it’s okay to cry.” Her permission unleashed a torrent of emotions within me, one of them being guilt.
I did not want to be pregnant again so soon after having Pio. I had Hyperemesis gravidarum when I was pregnant with Pio. I also struggled greatly with depression because I came off my medication as well as body image issues from gaining weight. When I was pregnant with Pio I would sleep on the bathroom floor to be closer to the toilet so I could throw up easier. I did not know how I could take care of Pio and go through that again. I was consumed with fear.
My pregnancy with Noah turned out to be fairly easy and my fear of having two children so close in age lessened over time.
Last month Noah turned 3 and we thank God and praise Him for the greatest surprise we didn’t know our hearts and family needed. Noah is the sweetest little guy, so full of life and joy. Noah was born with a severe gross motor delay and to see him work so hard over the past 3 years in PT and OT is amazing to witness! Just last week he pulled himself up in the pool to climb out and these accomplishments are so beautiful to watch. I’m beyond blessed to be his mother and I couldn’t even begin to imagine life without our sweet Noah.
I share this because I want you to remember that God is in control. He knows what we need when we don’t. His gifts are the greatest blessings. Yes, sometimes life is hard and the things He gives us we think we can’t handle, but with His grace we can. Noah is such a witness to God’s goodness and beauty. Whatever you are going through, remember that God is near. He will not abandon you. You are never alone. Trust that the creator of all things knows what you need. He holds you in the palm of His hand.
P.S. You are enough.