I will not sink. I will not sink. I will not sink.

By Christine Saah | Guest Blogger

I am sad to say that suicide is happening and impacting people I know and love. One boy was only 12 years old and another was only in high school. I guess I’ve been blind to the fact that when 16 seconds go by, another person has committed suicide in the United States. Suicide is one of those things people do not like to talk about. It’s right up there with eating disorders, self harm, abuse, and rape. The silence is killing the world, literally. Problems with eating disorders and the other issues can all lead to depression and suicide. I’ve been there. I know and fortunately never acted on it. I’d be lying if I said I never wanted to kill myself.

Someone has to be in a lot of emotional pain to hate themselves so badly. I still remember the first day I cut myself. I still remember the first time I forced myself to purge. It was extremely difficult to will myself into these destructive behaviors, but once I was placed on the edge of my depression, I jumped right in. Once I knew I could do these things, it was impossible to forget that I was capable of them. I beg anyone reading this on the edge of breaking down and going for it with self-destruction to please fight it. You are strong even though you think you are weak. Do not cross that line. Once it’s crossed, you’ll be way more broken than you already are. It doesn’t have to be that way. If you’ve already crossed that line, it’s not too late. I am a living testimony that you can live with battle wounds. Those scars are what make you and me beautiful.

I want to end this by thanking God for saving me. With God, there is always hope. Hope is what we all need when we are on the edge of losing ourselves. God loves me, and you. His love is greater than anything you can think of. He loves you, because of your wounds. He’s forgiven you for all your mistakes. Accept it, and rebuild yourself with Christ’s love. He’ll take care of you, I promise!

P.S. You are enough.